I (21f) have a very rocky relationship with my cousin (23f). You could say we’re “frenemies”. Since we were younger there was a lot of competitiveness between us, and that only increased as we got older… who was prettier, who got the hotter guys, who had more experience with sex, etc Despite that, we had a very deep friendship and I loved talking to her about everything (I say had because due to many reasons, we’re estranged now)

Over the years we’ve had many big fights where we stop talking to each other, like now. I used to think I was envious of her and everything she had that I didn’t, more beauty, more confidence…

now that I’ve come to terms with the fact that I like girls, I think all of that “envy” was just repressed sexual tension, and even if we’re not talking right now (and my pride won’t let me reach out to her), I would love if for just a moment we could pause everything going on between us right now and just let everything hateful we feel for each other out with sex

I’ve fantasized about the sleepovers where we both used to get drunk together, but instead of going to sleep, she ends up kneeling before me and licking me until I cum on her mouth.