I just view dating as too risky and a waste if time. I don't want to have to put my trust into someone hoping they wont betray me or find a way out of a relationship. Coming up with an excuse to leave. Idk, I just think dating and romance is stupid although sometimes I crave it. I just don't want to be vulnerable with someone else cause that gives them a chance to hurt me.

What's the point of dating anyway? I see it as just having a human as a pet. "Oh let me date this person cause I think they're so cute and cool and I want them in my life and around me 24/7". Then you have to feed it, take care of it, keep it impressed and amused so it wont get bored and leave you, it's so dumb. That's why dating is shit nowadays cause no one knows themselves and they enter relationships not knowing who they are or what they like and they just end up falling for toxic people. Don't even get me started on hook up culture. Just empty husks of human bodies chasing a high to get away from their problems.

I rather rot alone than bring someone down with me. I have tendencies that I know wouldn't be good for a relationship that I do not care about fixing rn. I need my alone time. Sometimes I dont want to talk or anyone to touch me. I just dont feel safe for the person or myself when I think about a relationship.

Like one toxic tendency I have is why would a woman need a male friend when she has me? Why would I need a female friend when I have her? It just adds for unnecessary worry for me. People will wake up in a different mood every day then take it out on you. Those are the days I wont to be left alone. When I dont want to do with humans, I want nothing to do with anybody. I have days where I either want to kms, or just walk away from the house and never come back. Just simply walk away from society and everything that's so important to everyone.

My point is, you can't never trust people 100%. People have their own motives, people change, and sex is always so fucking important. Imagine people in sexless marriages, that shit is probably so awkward and sad, but yet these people decided to marry each other despite a libido difference. People don't know what they want but they lie to themselves and settle. This leads to unfaithful partners.