DISCLAIMER: I know this is a potentially dangerous approach to take and that my relationship situation (described below) isn't the greatest. Please don't feel the need to scold or chastise me for any of that.

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Hi potential 'tists!
I've been intermittently training myself with the Bambi Sleep files for years, and very much enjoy it. So much so, that I'm hoping to find somebody that wants to make things more real :) I'm in a unique situation (no judgment please) where I am MTF trans, but unable to transition much (on HRT and present slightly androgynously, but not overtly femme in day-to-day life) due to being in a sexless marriage that I cannot end for the foreseeable future. Because of that, I have a need to both express my feminine (and - admittedly - very much slutty) self, but also remain discrete.
Based on my understanding of the capabilities of hypnosis based on research and my own experience as a subject, I'm hoping to find somebody to help me create a clear wall in my mind between two personas: my vanilla, day-to-day self (called Bobbi) and my bimbo, slutty, wild self (Bambi, for consistency lol). Ideally I would find somebody local to me, but I'm more than happy to work online. Additionally, I travel for work monthly and so end up in all sorts of random areas across the US.
A breakdown of what I was thinking for Bobbi vs Bambi is below. It is far from an exhaustive list, and I would love to find a hypnotist that will take advantage and have all sorts of their own fun with me as well ;)
Bobbi:
- No conscious awareness of Bambi's activities
- immense satisfaction feeling from Bambi
- can activate Bambi and will at every opportunity
- Will feel strong urge to activate Bambi whenever Bambi needs
- is immensely into Bambi's videos/stories/pictures but incapable of recognizing self in them, just perceived as a different sissy that happens to be favorite porn star. Outside of things related to Bambi then all sexual desire is channeled into Bambi consciousness
- will subconsciously work as Bambi desires as fully as possible (physical fitness, personal grooming, etc.)
- Complete impotence with women outside Bambi mode, unable to climax or get sexual relief when not Bambi - albeit with increasing horniness/frustration. Can masturbate, prefer not to get hard
- due to unique relationship circumstances, always have plausible deniability of all Bambi's actions. Cannot remember them at all to any degree (although does enjoy the "random favorite porn star" noted above)
- refuses/unable to perceive anything Bambi chooses (for instance, a chastity cage could be on and Bobbi doesn't process that it is there)
Bambi:
- has full understanding/recognition of Bobbis life and role, and supports ensuring Bambi's activities do not impact job, relationship, or health
- extremely submissive, slutty, dumb bimbo who lacks any intelligence except that required to pursue her sexual goals or protect Bobbi identity
- maintains a social media presence/sex work that is provided to Bobbi as random porn (as noted above)
- when not actively having/seeking sex she is training (hypno, sissy, makeup, etc)
- Can plan and subconsciously direct Bobbi to put in position and activate Bambi appropriately to pursue those plans
Example of how this would ultimately work:
Bobbi has a work trip in a few weeks. Bobbi activates Bambi in advance and has "black out 1", where Bobbi just loses a half hour or more in the blink of an eye. While packing and heading to the airport, Bobbi grabs and packs some femminine clothes without registering or seeing the clothes... the backpack/luggage just seems slightly smaller than normal. Bobbi lands at the destination airport and - after leaving security but not the airport - has "black out 2". Bobbi doesn't even notice the lingerie or chastity cage on now, let alone the lack of key. Bobbi just "thinks" its still some regular underwear and a limp clitty underneath some regular clothes. Bobbi gets to the hotel and checks in, gets into the room and gets ready to go to bed early. just before bed, Bobbi has "black out 3", waking up in bed the next morning - not registering the still locked cage, sexy nighty, or smeared makeup as anything more than just regular pajamas and a bit of a dirty face. This repeats every night during the trip.... Bobbi goes about the day working as normal, goes to bed early, "blacks out", and then wakes up in bed. The only oddness... each morning feels immensely satisfied sexually. The last morning, Bobbi doesn't notice the chastity cage gone - having never perceived its presence to begin with. Returning home, Bobbi stashes the excess clothes without ever being cognizant of their presence. Over the next few days, Bobbi is pleased and excited to see some fresh content from an amateur sissy followed online... Bobbi of course doesn't recognize the slut in the pictures or on videos, but can't help masturbating furiously to them without ever climaxing.... just like always with this mystery account - which Bobbi can't even remember how it was originally found!
Bambi, on the other hand:
Black out 1: Bambi jumps on to fetlife, reddit personnals, wherever and starts advertising... looking for fun this upcoming trip. During several small blackouts that Bobbi doesn't even notice, Bambi arranges for a Dom to meet at the airport with some supplies for a fun week, and lets him know of her various triggers and interests... although they all pretty much revolve around submission and use.
Black out 2: Bambi is aware at the airport, and sends a message to the Dom that she is there. They meet near a bathroom and he gives her a chastity cage and lock, no key. She goes to a bathroom and immediately puts it on, locking herself to the Doms pleasure as she has the length of the trip to earn being unlocked so Bobbi can go home. She sends the Dom a picture as proof, before she slips on the lingerie she had, and some androgynous clothes. Maybe even something a little more femme if she could this trip, a cute skirt and top. She puts on some makeup she had packed away as well and heads out of the bathroom. The Dom is gone... for now. Bambi lets Bobbi take back over, knowing Bobbi won't even process how cute and feminine she looks.
Black out 3 : Bambi is horny, locked, and has a nice hotel room to herself. She messages the Dom and starts getting dolled up for him to use. Makeup, painted nails, you name it. Maybe he takes her out for a cute date.... more likely if they leave the room it is for some public humiliation. Or they stay in, he uses all sorts of fun triggers and makes use of her mouth and ass for his pleasure... taking lots of photo and video along the way for her to post later. Each night is something new.... one night is just a quick BJ because he has places to be. Another he takes his time and makes love to Bambi like a girlfriend. Another he ties her up, blindfolded, and lets his friends take turns using her holes. Another he isn't even there, just whores her out to strangers online. She is cumming like crazy every night, even locked up, and posting all sorts of fun stuff to her socials just for "Bobbi" to enjoy later (of course Bobbi won't quite be able to cum, but there will be lots of furious masturbating to an unrecognized Bambi!). The last night the Dom unlocks her after she finishes serving one last time before Bambi packs up and leaves things for Bobbi without a trace.