Some time ago, I got hypnotised by u/youcantstopeating (the guy with "let me enslave you", and "I want to make you addicted to inflation" sort of posts...), and made addicted to the kink that I did back then just found out for a bit about... (Didn't expect it to be that strong, and I have no ways of controlling it right now... I've literally got hooked onto it, and keep on getting hornier and more desperate each day. Thought it was just the mood swing, and me being horny minded for a few days, but the tendency did not slow down, and I've checked out some possibilities, tried satisfying myself from inflating myself, but... Got to feel a bit more desperate for the thing after that. (I've found the idea to be "ok, sounds sort of kinky, I like it" before interacting with them, for context, not the "fkn pls need to be used, abused, lost, melted, fully under someone's control while inflating"...)

It's been almost a week since they have deleted their account, and I just find that with each day I crave for the thing more and more, literally getting crazy from how desperate I can feel sometimes, but also I don't get any bit less desperate, unless I'm used by anyone, ordered, and controlled by anyone to do this sort of stuff. If anyone would be willing to remove the suggestions I got implanted by that person (try to remove them at least), or, if someone, for some reason would like to use these suggestions, that I have installed inside of me, for easening the way I feel, I would really love some help.

P.S. That's not a "hey, I'm desperate, just come and roleplay with me" bait, or fake request. I really do want for the obsession to be gone... Or to be used to inflate... I have tried listening to deprogramming files, but been waking up from under their effects feeling even more needy than I did before starting one up, each damn time. I am not sure the suggestions like this would be removed so easily, but I'm more than sure that this is not a normal state to feel like. And, no, I'm not joking, or faking any of that.

P.P.S. I have the triggers, and I am willing to share some of them... I have safeties, so not really worried about getting them abused, but the safety somehow failed with passing the addiction part, probably because it was a gradual thing, and I found it to sound fun, especially since that kink is something I found hot...