My wife 36 and I 37 have been talking about doing this for a year. Initially the bedroom talk was hot, but always had to involve drinking. The. One night she was bringing up another girl and me not being there or a scenario where she gets to do the girl but I don’t. I hated it.

Then we met one of her old fuck buddies at the bar and she flirted with him a lot that night which we liked but he didn’t seem interested. Then she said one night we were drunk and fighting she would leave me for this guy in a hot second if things went south with us. I left for a hotel that night and we got back together a couple days later. Then this guy comes back after and I realized dude just wanted to steal her away. Fast forward to now, and we don’t really talk about it, but I am bored. We have sex but I miss having a partner who I shared something intimate with. Now I’m just like she will never be a slut again for me why would I feel like sharing her? No way. I wanted an adventurous life. Now I’m like, dude I really don’t want to leave her, but im stuck on a memory of what I thought I had once. It was suppose to help connect us. I know I need to take more time and be patient. Things like quitting drinking, getting my life together should be more important. But I don’t feel safe until this is resolved. More than a roof over my head I just wanted to be secure knowing one day I get the things that I want.