Hello fellow lovers of sexual pleasure and the human experience we call reality.

Bren married 25 years and I have had Hotwife fantasy for most of our marriage but it really took hold during the pandemic and I shared it with my wife for first time about a year ago or so/…. She doesn’t get it and she has not wants to be and loves my dick only and you have heard it before…..

I came into the relationship with a few partners under my belt and I was her first outside of sexual abuse when she was 13.

Being I have been her one and only I think turns me on even mote. Not sure why I am telling this but to get across it’s my goto jerk off every single time end of story.

So long story short my wife has a drinking problem and it’s reached the point I think her bottom will be me leaving and I simply can’t watch her kill hersely any more. Once again not really relevant.

Here is my problem I get all hot and heaven and want to go jerk off and goto the hot wife fantasy material and it’s not there there is that makes sense.

Then I get pissed at myself I can’t let this Hotwife shit go. It’s so hard to be made we someone and have them be your center of your jerk off material as well.

So now not having sex with wife anymore and getting disconnected from myself and I want a new fantasy or kink but doesn’t work that way.

Anyways how about you? How do you handle your self pleasure when that loving feeling is gone, gone, gone…// so far away but you miss your lovely darling but you know it’s over ahh ahh oh oh. Thank you.ps I miss her so so so bad.