I’ve made a couple posts in the past on here about me and my girlfriends progression after opening up to her that I was turned on by the idea of her having sex with another man.

It initially started when I overheard her talking about anal sex with her friends. I knew me and her had never done anal at that point so I knew she had to have been talking about an experience with someone other than me. I found myself incredibly jealous and horny at the same time and took her home and fucked her ass for the first time.

I slowly got more and more into hotwife/ck porn. Never really wanted to get cked and found myself falling more into the hotwife, stag vixen realm.

My fantasies have developed a lot over the years. I always imagined our first time I wanted her to be blindfolded. No kissing, no sucking another guys dick. (Weird how I wanted to watch her get fucked but couldn’t stand the thought of her sucking dick)

Over the last couple years though I’ve found myself turned on by the thought of her sucking dick or being intimate with another man. I always thought I wanted a mfm experience but I’m even open to the idea of her doing a solo meet. I’m to the point now where I would love to see another guy cum inside her and fuck her after. Years ago I was disgusted by the idea of that.

When I first told her about this fantasies she was initially disgusted but has since sort of opened up. I made a post about this specifically a while back but we went and got a dildo at the sex shop and that alone has really spiced our sex life up. She cums so hard when we play with her new dildo in bed.

Her major hang up is that she doesn’t want to fuck a stranger. She said she wants to have an emotional connection with any guy she would have sex with and we both agreed neither of us really are interested in her trying to develop that with anybody.

The role playing and dirty talk with toys though has been going so well. The other day she was sucking me and put her dildo inside her and said “you love seeing my pussy filled up while I suck your dick don’t you?” We both came instantly .

Our sex life is great and I don’t feel like we actually need to do this forreal. But also these fantasies are always in the back on my mind.

We don’t live together so when we aren’t together I jerk off exclusively to hotwife porn. I always feel dirty and ashamed after I cum though. I would hate to actually go through with the real thing and feel that way after watching another guy fuck the girl I love.

I think another major hang up for me is the penis size thing. I have an average dick. I can make her cum with it no issue. Anytime we dirty talk she tells me dick size doesn’t matter . If she were to fuck another guy all she cares about would be that he has a nice fit body. The dick size is kinda my thing.

It’s hot in my mind. The other day she asked if we could get a bigger dildo. Just her asking for that made me so hard. We did get a bigger one and we both loved it.

I know I always see posts about dick size on here and everyone says guys care about it way more than women. I still find that hard to believe. Especially after my gf asked for a bigger dildo and loved it.

Idk. Basically I love the idea of watching her get fucked by a bigger dick but scared it would wreck me emotionally.

Sorry for the long post guess I just wanted to get my thoughts out there. Thanks in advance for any input.