Im wondering, am I getting a lot of money? Should I be more grateful and give my clients more (kissing, daty, pretend to like it harder, etc)? Ive had men back to back with the same reactions and Im starting to feel like maybe its just me. Perhaps Im just not worth much more and this is as good as its gonna get, so I should try to make these men happy and kiss them? I started out when I was 22 and was slim and very muscular and fit, from dancing. Im 27 now and a lot fatter and less muscular. I still dance, so im sorta firm. Im not a disaster, but it seems no one thinks im special, either. Im always the last pick at the club because im the darkest, fattest girl. Im not even that fat. Im 5'5 , 155 pounds. Could be bigger. Ive seen plenty of black bbw providers doing better than me, but they have the money to book nice rooms and pay for good ads like Eros, etc. All the guys that see me want to go down on me and try to touch my clit and kiss me. They all book with urgency and haggle hard. No one comes back regularly ever. Im just a cheap girl to drop in on whenever, apparently. So, im always annoyed that when they arrive they want to act like im supposed to be excited to see them. When they're cheap like that, and rush me into appointments (because no one ever books in advance and i cant even have 15 to 20 mins to prepare because once i say this, they all ghost); I am turned off completely and just want to get it over with. Im starting to realise maybe this is what im "worth" and i should adjust to it. Like, since guys get sooo pissy about me not kissing and shit during the $100 session, I can charge less next time. Or, I can put full service, half service, to differentiate. I just know that I will get everyone trying to see me for half service rate to do full service. Its strange. Its like, no matter what I do, these tricks will always smell my blood in the water and take fucking advantage of me.