I’m starting to think that the whole world is fucked. Nothing works, everything is broken and the only thing you can rely on anymore is Amazon (which also triggers me). Background - mid fiddies, single, no kids, affordable mortgage, 3 cats, bills are mostly paid, lower-middle class, immediate family gets along well enough. Work has always been a stressor (25 years) but has been manageable up until last year. Cats don’t get along (a story for another time). The cost of living is stressing my bank accounts post pandemic but I’m surviving. Im relatively healthy. Parents/family are aging but equally as healthy. Decent circle of friends. Not too bad of a life, right?

Bottom line is, I’m stressed tf out. I got my MMJ card 2 years ago (self diagnosed anxiety issues) and it used to help relieve the everyday tension but even that doesn’t seem to be working anymore. Time for me to call a therapist! I have good (sigh) healthcare which includes 6 “free” sessions with a counselor/therapist. I called on Friday afternoon, got disconnected TWICE, and on the 3rd try, I got the phone number of a therapist (supposedly) in the area. I g00gled them and they’re not local…whatever….it’s telephone therapy so no biggie (although I would prefer someone who understands the area). I called to make an appointment this morning and after getting transferred twice, I come to find out that the therapist is not longer at the firm. Sigh Called my employer help number again, got transferred twice again, and allegedly have someone calling me within 24/48 hours to setup an appointment. It’s fucking mental health! Would you not think to have a robust system for people to have a (wait for it) STRESS FREE way to just fucking talk to someone? I mean, I can’t be the only one who gets shafted, disconnected, run around, taken advantage of, or otherwise just completely frustrated with everything? Please tell me there are others out there who feel they have their own personal bad luck cloud following them around 24/7? (Side note - I’m not going to hurt myself, I’m just completely frustrated with everything and looking for some solidarity. I really just want to vent to someone, and it’s so overwhelming to just do that!) Thanks for reading and I hope everyone has a nice day xx