I can go on a full day without eating and eat a reasonable meal at night without binging. Ive lost and gained back weight 3 times now.. I am only 19. I JUST CANT EAT NORMALLY.

But when i go out with friends, and they enjoyed a good meal and a few snacks, it made me think “Hey maybe i can eat normally like my friends here” And when i tried to eat normally, it always fails. It never worked. I will binge, if i eat a small breakfast in the morning, it can lead into a full day binge. I have to stop thinking that i am like my friends. I have a binge eating disorder and a food addiction, they dont. I cannot eat normally like them. But everytime i see them having lunch, having frappucinos, etc it always makes me think that maybe i can eat like them. Then tried. And failed. Then binged again. im tired.