My cat decided to eat the wire to my wand on May 31st. I didn't realize this until I was scrolling through this reddit ready for my nightly cummies. To my dismay the wire was chewed on two places. I had been having fun talking to a person about teasing and denying each other and here I was denied by a stupid pussy who didn't know any better.

I love the idea of being denied. I remember once as a horny teen (now years ago) someone edging me, denying me, forcing me to touch myself without satisfaction for saus at a time. I can never truely do it. I stalk this subreddit shaking my head at the misogyny and secretly taking pleasure at the people delighting in denying themselves and others.

Several times a week I cum from my wand. My wand my poor wire chewed wand. It numbed my clit and made me immune to all but the strongest vibrations for my cummies. I would keep staring at it and telling myself tomorrow. Tomorrow I'd learn how to orgasm from my fingers. Well I guess today is the day.

Yesterday I was all warmed up from teasing, today I intentionally got myself aroused reading through reddit and looking at hentai. I'm so aroused I don't want this to stop. I got a new wand today which I might use but I'm not sure.

My cunt is full. Two ball bearings wrapped in silicon benwa balls they call them. They slid around me while I was on the treadmill held only in place by the medical tape holding my labia shut and my pelvic muscles working them out.

They say "Good girls don't cum," I wonder if that applies to bunnies. I'm not a girl after all.

For me I've become reliant on orgasms as a tool to sleep. I use my wand to vibrate myself to sad fatigue. The sub drop from orgasms doesn't stop. While the wand makes me feel comfortable and calm it also reinforces my loneliness and feelings of ungratefulness despite just having cum. As a drug perhaps it is a better choice than others people use to help them sleep but for me I want to be able to touch myself. I want to become once again attuned to my body and it's needs.

How does one edge? Should I bother unwrapping my new wand or stick to fingers only on my clit, with my cunt filled with benwa balls? How do I know if my shakey breaths mean I ruined everything instead of being a good bunny? What does it mean to orgasm in the first place?

I think am going to succumb to the peer pressure, become one of the sluts endlessly rubbing throughout June unless some evil mastermind takes control of my wand and forces the orgasms out of me.

Good bunnies don't cum.

Suggestions and advice are welcome.