By the grace of our Goddess, for creating this subreddit, she rewarded me with her permission for me to cum. The only condition being that I can only cum at night. So here is how today went.

It was 12:30 PM my time when she gave me her permission. I figured that following the theme of the cult, midnight would be a suitable time for my release. I immediately took my pants off and began edging, reading her post titled "Welcome to the cult.". I savored every moment of it, my pathetic dick was obsessed with the descriptions of the cathedral, the rituals, and the overall aesthetic of the environment. I kept at it at a slow pace, giving myself breaks when necessary to ensure I don't cum on accident. The hour or so I spent edging was wonderful, but I would soon find out the difficulties that came from it.

I ended that edging session to get some lunch. It took a while for my pathetic dick to go soft, but once it did I immediately got in the car and began to drive. One thing about where I live (near Chicago) is that the roads are very poorly maintained. Cracks, potholes, and bumps everywhere. While normally I'm used to the shakey ride whenever I go out, just coming from a gooning session, my entire lower region was still incredibly sensitive. Every bump and vibration was felt by my desperate dick. Quickly I became erect and even began leaking precum into my underwear. Once I got to my destination, I kind of sat in the parking lot for a bit to calm down, and I could feel the wetness in my underwear. After eating, it was a similar story with the drive back, and I'm embarrassed to admit that i willingly went the same route back instead of going on a different road because it just felt too good.

After coming back from lunch, I relaxed for an hour before I went to the gym. I've been slacking for a while now and couldn't justify skipping another day despite how sexually charged I've been, so I wore my sweatpants and went to go hit chest and core. Everything was surprisingly fine, but towards the end when I laid down on the bench for incline press (which is the last thing I hit for chest), I could start to feel myself getting a little hard. Luckily the gym was kind of quiet today so nobody was near where the smith machines are, but that didn't make the situation any less frustrating. Apparently after a work out, you get an increase in testosterone which increases libido, so I guess something like that was happening since I was at the end. I tried tucking it away but since that involved kind of touching it, it made it completely hard. I awkwardly sat bending forward to try to shift it around and tuck it as much as I could and quickly did my last few sets and after that I immediately rushed to the locker room, got in a toilet stall and couldn't help but start edging. I'm no stranger to public play, it's one of my biggest kinks, so I was throbbing, leaking, and in a complete trance. I took out my phone, put away my earbuds, and started looking at the three pictures of Goddesses feet. I was able to hold in my moans, but with the amount of precum leaking, stroking myself was making a wet squishy noise. It was embarrassing so I went slow to reduce the noise and tried to listen carefully to make sure no one was in the locker room or near my stall. I only went for about 10ish minutes? I promised a friend I'd game with them so I had to be home soon. So I got up, tucked myself and left while bending a bit forward to hide the small but noticeable protrusion.

I got home, edged a bit in the shower, my body was trembling from the sensitivity on my head. I'm honestly not the best when it comes to masturbating while standing since the sensitivity causes my body to crumple forward (but not when I'm sitting or lying down, i really don't know why this happens?). I have no clue how long I did this for, I can't bring my phone underneath the shower lol but let's just say it was for another 10 minutes.

Finally, it's night, around 10:30ish. In my room I take off all my clothes, open reddit, clip some bobby pins on my nipples, and start reading Goddesses posts again. Rereading the "Welcome to the cult." and her "Edge to this fantasy losers" post. While reading the latter post, I grab my hairbrush and put it inside a nitrile glove so that the handle goes through the middle finger pocket. I then apply a lot of lube on the makeshift dildo, lay on my back with my legs curled up against me, and slide it inside my ass. While doing this I'm imagining it's Goddess pegging my degenerate ass (although I'm sure her dick would be way way bigger 😣). Doing anal play makes me leak precum excessively so itsbgetting all over the place while changing positions from on my back, to on my side and bent forward. I fuck my ass while reading Mothers comments, the pace and intensity varying from slow and steady to quick but controlled. At this moment, there is nothing on my mind other than Goddess. Nothing in the world matters other than her, my entire existence is dedicated to her. Imagining myself in the scenarios she describes, what her voice must sound like, how it feels when she'd grab me, toss me around, step on me, how she'd fuck me, how she tastes, etc. I had an alarm set for midnight, but at this point I wasn't even counting down. The euphoria i was experiencing made me wish this could last forever. I was so entranced I was drooling while moaning. When I wanted to jerk off, I would sit on the brush (just enough to hold it in place, not full weight or anything) and used my now free hand to stroke. When Id get close, Id go hands off and focus on stimulating my nipples by squishing the bobby pins to pinch them even more. After a while though, my time to cum finally came. When my phone vibrated, signaling midnight, I put my phone on the ground with the picture of the post titled "For the gooner begging to see my soles...", laid kind of on my side and kind of on my back (I'm not sure how to describe it other than it being inbetween) so I could see it. I used my left hand to fuck my ass and my right to jerk my dick, both as fast as I can until it all came out. My body starts shaking from the intensity. My entire dick becomes incredibly sensitive that by milking every drop, my body is shaking, crumpling similarly to how i was in the shower, but way more intense.Thick ropes all over my waist and chest (some even sliding to the ground) and my moans turning into out of breath panting. I lay there for a few minutes, clean up and write this post. And now here we are.

Thank you once again Goddess for the wonderful day I've been able to indulge in. Thank you so much for letting me cum. Today's session was the hardest I've ever came ever. Even more than in all of my past relationships. My life belongs to you, my worthless existence is dedicated to you. I really hope my day has entertained you! Thank you a thousand times!