My mother and I have been NC for almost 2 years, my dad and I LC for the same amount of time. The reason I had to cut my mother out of my life was because she constantly gave me the silent treatment as a kid. She would ignore me. She would name call me and tell me that the reason I don’t have friends is because I’m annoying. Not to get all into it, but she was just not a good mother and not there for me when I needed her.

I got diagnosed with depression and anxiety when I was 18 (at the student health center in college) and my mother told me that therapists and medication is a lie and I shouldn’t need that ‘stuff’ because I can get better on my own. (spoiler: I’m an adult and that was many moons ago and I’m still not better).

I cut contact with her because after learning that she has narcissistic tendencies, I couldn’t find it in me to be part of her life anymore. It was draining for my mental health.

My dad had been contacting me more than usual in the past months begging me to call my mother. I called her yesterday. I don’t know why I did it. Nothing has changed. She told me all the things I did wrong in her life and when it got to the point of the conversation where I was just begging for her to be my mother and treat me like her daughter, she turned it around on me saying that she is just going to treat me like one of her coworkers because I’m mean to her. I told her about the horrid things she did to me as a child. She name called me and told me I was the mean one and I deserved it.

She never apologized for anything. I didn’t expect her to, but why did my dad beg me to call her if she was just going to hurt me and gaslight me again and again?

Anyway, I cut her off again with NC and considering the same for my father as he just enables her. I just needed a place to vent.