I was suggested this sub by someone and after lurking a bit, it seems to be the place. Anyways, my name is Erin. To make a long story short, I recently went no contact with my mother and my other family because they are choosing my aunt who molested me for nearly all of my childhood (I'm only 18), to be in theirs lives instead of me. I have a good support system from my fiance who is my very best friend, but I'm still struggling with missing my other family and I don't know how to deal with it. It upsets me that I miss them, and the good memories when they chose to be awful to me. My mother and family all live about 15-30 mins away from me, I'm scared they'll show up for my birthday, which is soon, and try to go all out to win my affection or something else equally as showy. Though I made it very clear I want to be left alone and have been nc for nearly all of summer, I'm still scared they'll keep trying to contact me and might show up. None of this is good for me and my various mental health disorders. I just feel so lost. Thanks for reading this.

Edit: I just want to say thank you for these replies. They are so kind and relatable. Thanks for even reading. I feel seen and heard.