I pull up to a quiet, suburban culdesac to deliver the groceries I had shopped for a local customer. Some cucumbers, zucchini, apples, melons, pasta, dairy products, and ice cream for their cravings. I have cravings; but I don’t know if I CRAVE the standard cravables. For a glimpse into my twisted mind; when I shopped this order, I spent at least a minute searching for the…

  THICKEST…

  MOST FIRM…

  …cucumber and zucchini I could find. Yes, that’s the best signs of a ripe and fresh product. Grasping and squeezing these thick, firm boys, simultaneously made me ripen in the loins. My fingers clasped around a stiff and thick dick-shaped-food. It’s as if the FIRMNESS and sheer DENSITY, is pushing back onto my fingers. Grocery store produce trying to entice me into twisted indulgence and fantasy. 

  It DOES something for me…

  DOES something-to me…

  I have this weird thing about cock. My brain is twisted and deviant. It associates another hard COCK…with making my hard COCK…my COCK HARD…fuck!!!, 

  Blood-flowing-YARD STICK-filling goodness, is already stirring my brain like a cauldron of devious erotic potion. It’s such a tormented and ineligible feeling. It makes me HARD and fantasies begin to unfold, of the HOMO-EROTIC nature. NEVER of any attraction, or connection, to the male or person at all. 

   Just the COCK…!

  Touching and using my COCK, pleases me. I like to PLEASE; and receive great PLEASURE from conducting PLEASURE-town-merry-go-rounds; fast pass of fury! Curated by yours truly. So if I like my hard COCK, I think I kinda like other hard COCK. Or COCKS, multiple COCKS, all the COCKS. As long as they are PULSING, THROBBING, ENGORGING, BIG, HARD,… COCKS.

  As the one who’s stroking, beating, and contorting my COCK to completion, for all of eternity… I know, or think I know, what it feels like to be on the receiving end of the nerve firing, senses-tingling-sensations that are felt throughout the body attached to said COCK. I know what it’s supposed to feel like, and look like, and what buttons to push. Watching porn I searched for POV blowjob and THROAT FUCK videos. Big COCK rammed down an awaiting throat. The LOUDER and HARDER the waves of COCK-sucking-sound crash onto the shores of fellatio…the better. The SLOPPIER the COCK is SUCKED, SLURPED, and SWALLOWED…the better. The more SALIVA-LEAKING-FACE-FUCKING goodness…the better. CHORGING and GAGGING visual and audio was a must. What an ORAL-MANIPULATION-CONUNDRUM! 

  How much would I enjoy the sights and sounds of sloppy-cum-inducing-head…PERFORMED by yours truly…TASTING, SMELLING, FEELING, SEEING, and RECEIVING all at once…the product of a mouth and a COCK.

   I felt alone in my thoughts. I felt insecure and confused by these urges. I felt out of place. 

  ISOLATED.

  For sure, none of my bros fantasized about a hard throbbing COCK in their mouth. But…it sent chills through my bones, fluttering the head of my own tender COCK. I could close my eyes, open my mind and my mouth, and saliva puddled up and hunger built. No way the reality and experience could stand up to the DREAM my faulty-mind created; RIGHT?!?

   Will I find out…? 

   Are my CUM-filled-balls…BALLSY enough to do….some GAY shit?        

  I didn’t know…?

  …And I still don’t know…?

  What I did know…was that BIG, HARD, COCK was stapled to my SEXUAL mind, and a bedrock of my intimacy. 

  IT *turns me the fuck on*. 

  Fuck around and find out I did!

   Senior year of high school. I sat on my bed next to my best bro as we played call of duty and watched bullshit cable television movies. He was staying the night at my house. We stayed at each others houses over the years. Always had a blast. Filled with video games, stunts for our jackass videos; and all-out-shenanigans. 

   Best-bros chasing girls, loving life. Just a pair of care-free, innocent teenagers. Night passes on and hours fade; and still we lay. Out of nowhere I sit up and ask “ Can I suck your COCK?” Nerve-wracking and clacking my brain with wtf I just said. 

   What’s to come???…

   !!!cum!!!???

   I don’t know…. I hope… I…?

  With a puzzled and reluctant, non-verbal response….

  He nodded…

  …and off I went…

This is the beginning of my first erotica book, please let me know what you think. 🙏🙏🙏🤫🤫🤫🙏🙏🙏