-I am 18 and all participants and characters must be 18 -

When Rachel and I (Ren) first started looking for someone to look after our kids, we must have done 20 interviews. And let's be honest, she is so hands off with the kids and the marriage at this point that it was just me, with her on her phone most of each one. I knew when we got married that her job would keep her busy, flying all over the world looking for "the next big artist" for her gallery, but at the beginning at least we'd go together when my job permitted it! Anymore, it's a few words at dinner, and sleeping in separate beds. But I knew when we sat down for our interview that we had found our person! Your bubbly personality, education at my Alma Mater, and kind heart that you showed our kids when you first met them, I knew we had to have you! It also didn't help that you were easy on the eyes.

The first year of having you was so amazing that it made the decision to have you move in as a full au pair easy! Selfishly, it was just nice to have someone who shared my interests of wine, good food, history, and travel to talk to in the house. We settled in to such an easy rhythm, and the kids loved having you in the house as well! Watching you helping tutor them, play their silly games, and splash around in the pool always warmed my heart.

After the first full year of you living here though, I started feeling a shift in our relationship. We got even closer, and there started to be quick stolen glances. When I worked from home, seeing you sun bathing out by the pool in your bikini started to distract me. The way that you would bite your lip trying to figure out how to most easily explain a math problem to our youngest gave me a jolt. I really noticed it when you hugged me goodbye right before Christmas last year, leaving to go see your family for a week, and you lingered, saying you'd miss me quietly in my ear. The feeling of your breath on me like that made me feel a way that I hadn't since the first year of my marriage.

All of a sudden, I couldn't stop thinking about you. For the last couple of months I had to remind myself that I was married, even though it was just for the kids and appearances at this point. But it's started to creep in to every facet of my life. When I would go to work events with my wife, or even to the kids school plays, l imagined it was just us without Rachel. The two times that we had sex in the last 3 months, which was a result of her coming home from a gallery opening reeking of champagne and cigarettes, my thoughts wandered to wishing it was you, not her. Imagining it was you who was in the little black dress she had on last time before she unceremoniously threw it off and demanded that I got naked. I wished it was your moans I heard as I did my husbandly duty and kissed down her body to between her thighs.

But alas, I'm 37, with salt and pepper hair, and even though I try and keep up with the gym at least 3 or 4 times a week, I can't imagine that someone is their 20's would ever look at me that way. I tell myself that the stolen glances are just in my head. I'm sure the fact that you've started wearing more revealing bikinis in the pool and sunbathing were just because you started feeling more confident in yourself as you're maturing. At the end of the day, l'm just glad you're in our life, but that doesn't stop me from hoping that one night, after the kids are in bed, and Rachel is off telling some painter how she just needs to have their art represented by her, that l'd hear footsteps outside my office, and that you'd stop in for a glass of Barolo with me.

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Looking for some long term role play! Maybe some excitement of almost being caught, and what this type of sneaking around would be! In your first response, it’d be great to hear your looks, character name, and a the apprehension of knocking on my office door and a lead in to that!

I’m not looking for someone to just do one sentence responses! If you’re interested, shoot me a DM!