I've started riding again after having a horse of my own for 7 years. Sometimes it feels kinda off since these horses never have pasture free time. I feel like bothering them. Yesterday I rode a 17 yo horse and she didn't feel like being ridden since i had to push her so much. The trainer was like keep hitting her whip but i don't like doing that wtf. If i didn't want to work ans there was an AH on my back whipping me I would buck him off. Another lesson i had a young horse who would simply stop lol like i'm trotting and he stops no matter how much i push him. Started to buck after that but i didn't fall this time. I did fall once from a pretty old horse who i feel like is simply fed up being ridden, I understand him. We're not jumping or anything but horses tend to make people fall. Are they okay ? Are they being forced ? I'm concerned about their mental heath I'm loosing the will to ride it's not the same as with my previous horse. I used to take care of him well giving him a lot of freedom time and not over riding him he never tried to make me fall that much. (he did in the begining tho when i just bought him) Should I look for another place ? Even tho it's super common here for horses to live 24/7 in a stall and it makes me sad