I used to waste so much time edging... Filling up my brain with nothing but porn and sexting random sluts on here that did nothing but encourage the bad in me.

I've been lurking this sub for quite a while... I've resisted posting on here and ran away from those I've developed rapports with.

I know for a fact that I would get obsessed with this entire lifestyle once again if I meet the same... Bad influences. But it's hard to resist and as I am right now... I really shouldn't be making any posts... But here I am.

There are so many people on here that love being horrible influences. Love pushing people to dig their graves deeper and deeper until they're so far down the rabbit hole that no ladder, no matter how high... Can help them climb out. As much as the bad in me loves that... I always try to resist...

And here I am... Interested in meeting those people... All to see if relapsing... Is indeed... A good idea.