One moment of clarity I regret

I was a fucking loner when I was younger (18-19). Like the bad type that wouldn't talk to no one. So I never had any fuck buddies. My only hobby was jerking off. That means I get home and instantly masturbate the day away. I was in love with edging myself and getting the most pleasure out of every session. I was on it a minimum of 2 to 3 hours every single day.

When I started using reddit for porn I came across all these subreddits where people post their nudes. It's also how I became interested in dicks, apart from pussies ;)

I never wanted to make nudes but seeing everyone make them got me really into it and I decided to start on my own. And let me tell you, I don't know how I pulled that off but my first nudes were fucking bangers.

I literally cannot reach the same quality as I had anymore. My first nudes were exhibition masterclass. I was always into exhibition in porn and I feared that I would be found out immediately at home so I just decided to do some exhibition myself.

For some reason when I did those nudes, the angle, the lighting, the motiv just all perfectly worked out. The fust dick pic I publicly posted got quite a few votes too.

Some time I sadly went on some self healing bullshit. I wanted to cut down on masturbating and stuff like that. Big fucking regret. I even ended up deleting all my nudes from this app and wiped my drives that contained them. I'm still so mad at myself for that.