About two months ago I (M19) was mindlessly scrolling while jerking as I saw a interesting message in one of the chats reading: “looking for slave”. Although it had been a few hours since the message was posted I clicked on the user and immediately messaged them, asking if the position was still available. A bit later I got a reply and from there on everything changed.

As it turned out the person behind the message was a 23 year old woman, looking mainly for a feeding slave but also interested in a long-term slave to own. After some feeding sessions we began discussing kinks, limits and expectations for our “relationship” as well as rules I was to follow. Her rules at the start were simple enough and I didn’t think much of it. One of the rules was, that I wasn’t allowed an orgasm until given permission by her. That did not seem to bad at the start, since I got permission almost after the ach feeding, unless I messed something up royally.

Then, after a few weeks had passed and we had gotten to know each other better she began pushing me more, testing some of my limits and giving me increasingly harder and more humiliating tasks for her. One of her most frequent tasks was dedicating time to her pleasure, meaning sending her pics and videos of her favorite porn categories or celebrities, while she wasn’t even online. I would sit for hours at a time feeding and starting at an empty screen without getting any reply, other than the “good boy” hours later. I happily obeyed. As an addition to those tasks she also more frequently denied me my orgasms, sending me to bed edged and horny.

Then it all started getting serious. She told me that denial was one of her biggest kinks and passions and I was worried I was going to be denied two, maybe three days at a time… boy was I wrong. Just for some context, I hadn’t really done denial ever in my life before. I mean sure, I sometimes didn’t cum for several days a time while I was on vacation or something, but that wasn’t denial. I wasn’t actively masturbating and edging and then denying… Anyway, after she told me that, I wasn’t allowed to cum for five days, a really hard five days for a beginner. After those five days she granted me an orgasm and as she wasn’t usually around at the weekend, I was granted a free weekend, having my final orgasm Sunday, the 25th August. My last full orgasm to this date…

After that Sunday, she once again denied me for 5 days. One thing that did change was the tasks, as she added a very special one: I was ordered to wake up at midnight and edge exactly 12 times, before going back to sleep. As you can probably imagine, that soon turned into complete torture, as I had to go to bed, completely desperate and frustrated. I should probably mention that we live in different time zones, so usually our lives encounters ended at 3 or 4pm, giving me time to get less horny before heading to bed. That wasn’t possible now. After an excruciating week of edging we had a session and I was told to hump the air in my underwear. She joked that I would be able to cum alone from that friction and I agreed, as I was sure that I actually would be able to after my denial. She allowed me to and I made a total mess, ruining my orgasm in my underwear. But I didn’t care, it was an orgasm! That was August 30th.

Since then she stared teasing me more and more, giving me more extreme tasks and making me edge each midnight 12 times, which didn’t mean I was spared the day as I was often instructed to dedicate time and edge for her.

One evening, September 8th, she instructed me to stay up until she messaged me, so I did. I stayed up until 2am waiting for her before we could start our session. We started playing “Truth or Dare” and safe to say I was completely pent up from edging close to 100 times since my last ruin and countless times since my last full orgasm. We played a bit before my frustration got the better of me and as she chose truth I asked “When will I have my next orgasm?”. She laughed and told me that my next full one wouldn’t be until September 25th, exactly one month after my last one. I asked about my next ruined one, at this point just hoping for anything and she told me that I’d see. We continued and after some more time I once again got overwhelmed by frustration and horniness and I asked her what I could do to earn a ruined orgasm. She thought about for a while and after I layed out how insanely desperate I was and that I’d really do anything she made me a proposition: I was given 10 minutes to prepare pictures and videos to give her the best feeding session of her life. If I succeeded at that I would be allowed a ruined orgasm.

I’m ashamed to admit what happened next, but as I read that message and my head began fantasizing about me ruining my orgasm I felt a sensation in my cock, that I hadn’t touched at all. I wasn’t able to stop myself and came handsfree all over myself, without permission. I felt terrible and we talked for a bit. She gave me a more than fair punishment and ensured me that she was still my owner and just had to train me extra hard.

She instructed me to write this, as she wanted this subreddit to hear the story of us: How she owns me in every way imaginable, how I lose hours of sleep, waking up at midnight edging and how much I’ll let her take over just for her pleasure…

(Disclaimer: I’m not looking for a partner, I am very happy with my goddess!)