I have been able to get into longer denial sessions with mixed results over the years. My longest being about 10 days with a few ruins. A few months ago I had a great opportunity to stay denied while on vacation with very little privacy. I really only had 5-10 minutes here and there I could sneak away to edge, so I really had to force myself to stop before my horny little slut brain took over and I'd make myself cum. It was amazing! it was so fun and it's the horniest I'd ever been and I really want to get back to that.

I started to try and train and condition myself into hating orgasms specifically as a way to avoid them. In addition to that I get so turned on and gooned out to the fantasy of being a high end sex toy, being wet and aching and always available but never physically being able to cum. Both work well as motivators and make me crazy, but a lot of the time I still tip over during a single edge session. Even if I make it a couple of days, it's always by day 3 that it really starts to catch up with me and becomes incredibly difficult to control.

I know a major part of this is self control, that's why it's so fun! Knowing I chose to be this fucked up, edged out, slutty little exhibitionist fucktoy gets me off so deeply. But it really is hard to keep up with once you're so foggy brained and running on instinct, sometimes despite my actual desires I just make myself cum and get upset about it later. I want to try and retrain my instinct into being one that does not want to cum or hates cumming.

Maybe I need to come up with an edging schedule. Days of edging or no touch with set tasks, I'm not sure? Maybe there's other tasks or challenges I should try?

For those that experience similar struggles or those that used to, any advice? I really want to become the best slutty little public use fucktoy I can be, but I really gotta retrain my cunt to forget about cumming.

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