gaming and had to take a short pause to let something build in game. took an hour of wait time, so i figured why not edge a bit? as long as i'm sticking with my goal of not denying and not cumming, i should be fine to edge for a bit right? took my shaft out while waiting and was already starting to leak a little. i'm typically sensitive to begin with so just the slightest touch had me tense 😅 i was hard for an hour before this edge started, not touching at all, just fantasizing and my tip rubbing against my underwear wasn't helping the sensitivity either lol.

spent the last hour edging to some of my go to subreddits, alternating between grip strength, stroking speeds, going fast and slow and leaking when i start to ride the edge for a bit of time.. it got to the point where i was comfortable adjusting my grip to a tighter grip with faster strokes (not enough to ruin or release, but just enough to keep myself on the edge). tbh, i've been a bit self conscious about how sensitive my dick can be, but this experience helped me to learn a couple things about why, i guess? i can't say for others, but at least for myself 😅

confidence within yourself goes a long way. don't think thoughts like "i can't edge, it's not possible, i'm too sensitive, etc" self love, positive affirmations and self reassurance goes a looooong long long way when buildling confidence up. also, not having a worry about others around you helps too! i mean sure, i wouldn't want a family member walking in on me edging myself to heaven, or someone yelling at the mailman for something or whatever other distraction i might find myself having to deal with lmao but even the slightest bit of worry, fear, stress etc for a distraction can seriously affect how sensitive and quick i would have been to ruin the perfect edge.

it. was. phenomenal.. i felt sooo leaky and throbby, every once in a while my cock would feel numb with how good the edge felt, and my mind was at a blissful ease.. stress free, worry free, slightly hazy of course, but not anything that felt uncomfortably foggy haha 😅 i dunno if "enlightened" is the right word for it, but i feel sooo at peace with myself because of the session :)