Kratom. tried it a couple times last year but it would make me borderline nodding except without euphoria. I honestly believed when people said it was trash.

However I tried it again recently and holy shit. Idk if it’s because I’m doing mixed blends or greens now but from the few times in my life I’ve taken opiates it feels just like that - both physical and mental euphoria.

It also completely fixes my severe withdrawal I get from adderall, no drug on earth has done this before for me. It also helps me not smoke weed that I usually use to alleviate boredom or for the comedown of my prescription adderall. It also helps dull the extreme and distracting horniness I get from amphs.

It would be life changing if I could continue with this use but sadly I can’t. I have an addictive ass personality, I’m already up to 15-20g’s of kratom at once (crap gas station product tho) after having taken ever increasing doses every other day or sometimes 2 days with a day or two break in the last two weeks. I know Kratom can be incredibly safe and 95 % of y’all have your shit together but I am just one of those people who lacks with self control no way round it.

What would y’all suggest? Could stop for a while to get my tolerance and take it safely three days a week for the adderall comedown or should I just quit it? If I did what dose should I aim for? There is a chance that I could use it safely if only for medicinal purposes, the reason I’ve been continuously upping doses is because it’s been purely rec use.