I (f, 26) lucid dream almost every night. It's 90% of the time a sex dream because i have to pee and why not? Sometimes romance comes in to play and it's always with ppl from my past. Either ppl I never had the chance with or ppl I had a moment of romance with and never got to see where it went and then one person that I have a cosmic weird connection with, 10 years and going. Anyways, the list of these people is short, I'd say like 6 ppl. 5/6 are from high school. Idk why I don't dream about college ppl. Anyways, I have these really intense dreams where I meet up with these ppl and we finally have our chance. Last night, it was of a guy that I had a day long romance with after high school but then his ex attacked me through his snap chat and I never got to talk to him again(irl). In the dream I was with another friend and this person, Dylan, was ignoring me, couldn't even look at me. He had a little kid now, single father it seemed. He was talking with my friend and this went on, him not acknowledging my presence so I ran out of the house sobbing. Somehow the kid got out too and was running away and so I went to save then and I did. Dylan, came up and thanked me and I said can we put the past behind us, can you forgive me and can we move on? He said yes and then we spent some time talking. I mentioned to him that he still couldnt meet my eyes. When he did something shifted. I could tell he had deep feelings for me and mine came alive too. We continued flirtatiously talking and coyly planning a date. There was more, random weird dream stuff, including time reversing and me never saving the child and him never forgiving me, which I tried to fix because of the lucid nature of my dream. I woke up almost in tears, wanting to know him and be friends at least. When this happens I go to my socials and try to find them, sometimes this helps satiate me. This person didn't have a presence. I know it isn't logical and it will fade in a few days but I really want to reach out somehow. I really want to believe they are in my dream for a reason. But I know the reason is probably one sided, it's something only about me. My dream trying to teach me something. But it hurts like a broken heart. It's heavy and deep.