This one’s a bit of a rollercoaster so I’ll start with the tldr - I ruined the trust in my marriage, separated but still see my ex all the time with the kids. I want her back, she’s moving on. How do I let go?

My wife and I separated a year ago. It was my fault - I broke her trust and hurt her badly. I’ve had therapy, seen doctors and been treated for mental health issues and I’ve done my best to support her ever since.

We have 2 kids together - 10y and 6m. Since the baby was born I’ve visited almost every day, we’ve been on days out and it’s still felt very much like we’re a family and that she still had feelings for me that we could work on.

The other week she told me that she still loves me, but that she’s not in love with me. Shes ready to move on, has seen a couple of guys and wanted some space so she didn’t risk catching feelings for me again.

I’ve given her space. I’ve spoken to her several times, apologised for what I’ve done and done my best to show that I’ve grown as a person and I’m prepared to try again once I’ve earned some trust back.

But she’s adamant she only wants to be friends and doesn’t want to try again. That’s her decision, I wish I could change her mind but I’d only push her away if I tried.

I’m not ready to let go of her. She’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me, she’s given me 14 years of marriage, been my best friend throughout and is the mother to my 2 amazing kids. I still love her. Every time I see her I realise how badly I’ve fucked up.

I know I can just stop seeing her, but she’s said she wants to remain friends especially for the sake of our children. 10y has suffered enough without taking the days out etc she’s been enjoying away from her. And even then I think about her all the time even when I’m not around her.

What can I do to try to lose these feelings?