I like sex, but I struggle with relationships as I find it so hard to communicate with people. I’m autistic, and introverted, and I have a lot of anxiety and I find talking to people quite scary and confusing. If you met me IRL you’d probably find me shy, reserved, very quiet, and maybe a bit aloof. I’m not trying to be rude, I’m just uncomfortable.

So I don’t really understand how I am also a bit of an exhibitionist. I love performing. I’m a singer and dancer, and maybe I feel like I’m communicating with people when I’m on stage in a way I can’t when I’m being me. I also love having people look at me and thinking they find me attractive. Something like taking my jumper off and accidentally pulling my t shirt up to give somebody a quick, ‘accidental’ flash of my tits turns me on. Generally, if I’m in performance mode I get turned on having people watch me, whether I’m singing for an audience or accidentally letting my towel fall down in front of a house mate. The anxiety and nerves I feel before hand just disappear when I’m performing in any way and I absolutely love it because I feel like a different person.

So here is my confession: lots of performers I know have little rituals or superstitions to help them get into the right frame of mind before a show. Everybody has their own thing, like reciting a poem or arranging stuff on their dressing table just so. Mine is masturbating.

Somehow, somewhere along the line I realised that I feel better on stage when I’m horny as fuck. The shows just go better and I feel like the audience are watching me like they want to fuck me. It gives me a huge boost on stage, and so before each show I’ll find somewhere quiet and play with myself. I don’t cum before a show, I just get myself worked up until I forget the anxiety and nerves and feel really horny.

Tl;dr: Whenever I go on stage to perform in front of a crowd my pussy is dripping wet and aching to be fucked. Then if you are in the audience I’m imagining that you really really want to fuck me.