I, a Black Brazilian F, was engaged in a 3some with a white couple. The wife was getting fucked by her husband while I was playing with her nipples and observing. The couple was very verbal, which I actually quite liked. We were going with the flow and naughty things were being said, then I impulsively commented “fuck her like the dirty, white whore she is.” Everything was hot and spontaneous and enjoyable.

Then she said she wanted to see him fuck me so we swapped positions. He started pounding me with greater and greater intensity, it was clear we found a nice rhythm and we were all consumed in the moment. Then out of nowhere the wife said “fuck her nigger cunt, fuck her dirty nigger cunt!”

I was thrown into a state of shock but at the same time, extremely aroused. It all happened so fast but suddenly, I began to rain squirt everywhere. This was a first for me!

When it was over, I felt a range of emotions - remorse, embarrassment and confusion. Though I couldn’t be mad, I called her a white whore first, so I technically started it. However, I had difficulty processing the encounter. It was one of the hottest fucking experiences of my life but at what expense? Did I allow myself to be degraded, I wondered. Then I said to myself “I liked it immensely and what does that say about me?”

I went home and never saw the couple again and never had another “raceplay” experience.

[This is a story of dissonance not an endorsement]