It’s been 2 months since I talked to her, she my was light, she is the definition of beautiful & her smile is fucking everything, but unfortunately I had a hard time showing it & wasn’t the best friend in the world, she even admitted to thinking I was cute & went as far saying I had a chance to date her. Now it’s all gone & I will never be able to talk to her again, she will live her life in happiness without me while I cry in my fucking room thinking about her, thinking about how I made a mistake of not trying harder cuz she was a amazing friend & a even better girlfriend that’s to bad she believes we don’t deserve to be in each other life anymore. This is going hurt a lot & I don’t think this pain is going away, I know what I had was something special I was just & still am in a hard place epically mentally right now & it doesn’t help that I also think about her sexually & that doesn’t seem to be stopping either. The only thing this is doing is making me depressed, I want her out of my head for good… cuz it only hurts thinking about her