I've met my friend's first fronting alter, a few days ago. She's a little, and such a sweetheart. My friend had made some good steps with acceptance and communication, setting up a notebook for them to communicate, and using pluralkit to give them their own identity in a private chat channel with me.

And then today happened. Sparing the personal details, now my friend is going through the very natural reactions of grief, anger, and sadness at the loss of her supposed "normalcy". I know that, if this is an authentic dissociative alter consciousness (as I am fairly well convinced it is), it has been there for many years as part of a nascent system before awakening. But my friend has closed her mind to processing that conclusion, for now.

I know she needs time. I know she will return to acceptance on her own terms, when she is ready to do so. It just hurts to see her pushing her little away, denying her existence. I know that little is hurting from this, and I can't reach out to her. It's just hard to do the right thing and wait for that door to open again. So I needed to vent about it here. Thanks for giving me an understanding space to do that.