I'm a soft daddy dom that likes to praise, take care of and protect my little. I've enjoyed this side of the kink; bedtime rituals, taking the lead and little things like head pats. Sexually this has translated to babying and teaching/training mostly.

Recently I've become involved with a little who needs a stricter daddy, to punish her, physically control her and be somewhat degrading at times. I have been exploring this, but I've been dealing with feelings of shame and guilt on two points: hurting the one person I love / have feelings for, and getting turned on by her being in little space. In addition to that, when she tells me about her previous doms and the things they did that she liked, I can get really angry with them for mistreating her.

It makes absolutely no sense, because at a cognitive level I understand the kink, the consensus and the roles we play in a way. I have a good 15 years of experience as a dom and I've never felt these emotions before. Did I accidentally turn vanilla? How do I deal with this?