(Edit: After posting it was brought to my attention that my update didn’t include any explicit requests for support within this subreddit. And yet I could really use some as I’ve found this sub to be an amazing resource for me this past year. Some really insightful comments and messages that have helped guide the way. So I went ahead and added some additional comments/questions at the end.)

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I’ve been meaning to share an update for quite some time. This past year has brought some new experiences and dynamics to my marriage that I hadn’t realized was possible. In the midst of a global pandemic nonetheless! What started off as an adventurous threesome evolved into a year long sexual adventure that pushed our boundaries throughout. This never would have been possible without the loving support and amazing communication between my husband and I.

For the backstory, you’ll need to check my previous posts. After awhile, I started seeing Jason semi regularly following work. He lived downtown just a 10 minute drive away so it was way too convenient, lol! We’d text during the day and I’d get so turned on I couldn’t resist when he offered to call me a Lyft. My pussy was usually dripping wet by the time I got to his door. Sometimes he’d open the door and I would immediately drop to my knees while he face fucked me until he came. Didn’t know that was something that turned me on so much! Other times he would turn me around, lift my skirt or pull my pants down and fuck me up against the wall. I wouldn’t usually get too far into his condo and he’d usually finish within 20-30 minutes (and after I’d cum repeatedly). He’d then send me home still horny with the taste of cum in my mouth or in my pussy. My husband got to benefits as I’d often want him to go down on me or fool around when I got home from “work”. He’d sometimes gues if I had stopped by Jason’s place but I wouldn’t tell him ahead of time. Don’t get me wrong, there are no secrets between us. It was a fun little game we’d play.

That went on for many months. We also would get together on weekends too. Although I think I prefer playing with my husband present, as we stretched our boundaries, the solo play with Jason became more regular. In hindsight, maybe not the best move. However, we found creative ways to keep my husband involved. For instance there were a few times where I would hand over my phone to Jason when I came over on a weekend and my husband could then only communicate with me via Jason. He would text or call my husband with updates, send pics/videos and would sometimes call and leave the phone on so my husband could hear us. Sometimes he’d make my husband do chores and tasks around the house to gain the privilege of listening in on our playtime. Or he might make him wear a cock cage and tell him send him pictures of it to share with me. I was able to relax into those scenes and it turned me on seeing the different ways he make my husband submit to him. A few times I even spent the night. Not because I had planned to do so but because I was so exhausted in the afterglow of the mind blowing sex. Jason would take some video of me cozied up in his bed and send it to my husband to let him know that he would Lyft me home in the morning.

Again, this went on for many months. Eventually it reached a point where I could tell that Jason was wanting more than just an ongoing sexual adventure. Looking back, I do wonder if the solo adventures pushed things too far. Or maybe it was just a matter of time since we were all being exclusive due to the pandemic. And as much as he helped push our boundaries this past year, moving into a poly type of relationship is not our jam. Not to say it couldn’t work for others, just not for us. So we had the conversation and ended things. He’s now off to find a girlfriend. There’s much I’m going to miss about him and all of our sexy adventures together. The memories and experiences shared will be a part of me forever. It taught me a lot about communication and in a surprising way brought me closer to my husband.

So now what? Given we’re fully vaccinated we’re going to selectively dip our toes back into swinging again. Couples ideally. Maybe singles for regular threesomes. It’s been so long!

I don’t know if I’ll ever find another guy like Jason again. Someone that I’ll feel comfortable submitting to again. It’s such a rare thing for me. But I really enjoyed teaming up with him to dominate my husband though. And watching my husband submissively take his cock in his mouth makes my pussy wet as I type these words just thinking about it. Mmmm.... We’ve been talking about finding safe ways to explore this dynamic again. Thinking we might write an ad for a single male that would open to taking things suuuuuper slow with me. Starting off with some role play over the phone (voice) where we make my husband do all sorts of things while I play with a dildo pretending it’s his cock. Still trying to figure out how to make that all work but it feels like a safe way to see if we’d be a fit to eventually meet in person. Would need to verify first of course and be physically attracted even though it’s just voice to start. But if the chemistry is there I could see us revisiting this dynamic again down the road. I’m just super picky with guys in general let alone someone that’s going to learn how to respectfully navigate this unique scenario with us.

So that’s my long overdue update. It’s been quite the learning experience this past year...and a LOT of fun!! I’ve appreciated Reddit users here as I’ve received some solid advice along the way. Plus reading about the experiences of others as been instrumental in making this work for my husband and I. Hopefully my updates and experiences have helped others as well.

That being said, here’s where I’m hoping to get some more insight from this community. Since posting I’ve had a lot of questions about what exactly happened between Jason and I. And I’m not quite sure if there was anything I could have done different to keep things going between us. When we first starting seeing each other he was all I could think about. At work, at home, while having sex with my husband. I felt super guilty about it and was afraid that maybe I was falling for him emotionally. Lots of conversations and encouragement with my husband helped me let go of that guilt. And as time went on I started recognizing that I was just feeling the fresh/new excitement that went along with getting to know someone more intimately on a physical level. (In particular someone super hot that hit my spots in all the right ways!). In hindsight though I worry that maybe the amount of time we were spending together solo contributed to his desire to have a deeper, more emotional connection with me? That was a HUGE leap for my husband and I and an area that really pushed our boundaries. My husband and I always played together, same room when we were swinging. So moving forward if we ever do anything like this again, I’m not quite sure I’d want to play without my husband there. Is it even possible to not be poly but have a regular ongoing solo physical relationship outside of my marriage? I’ve seen guys here talking about their ladies falling in love with their bulls (some even encouraging them to do so), but I haven’t read much about it happening the other way around. Is that a macho thing where bulls here wouldn’t want to admit if it did happen to them?

Also I realize that it could have simply been a matter of time. We all change and want different things over time. It might not have had anything to do with me and more to do with where Jason is at in his life right now.

Anyway I do appreciate and welcome comments. Especially from other ladies. And I realize this was a really long read but it’s also been quite the adventure this past year.