My wife and I have cuckold experiences and we talk through feelings and desires often. She tested me early by flying to an old boyfriend and staying with him for three days. She continues to have questions of why which I have not completely solved myself.

Recently we have begun the conversation of her seeing her ex. They have adult children and 25 years of history. I told her how much it would turn me on for her to push the relationship to them having sex again. I told her when somebody still loves you (he does) and you still care about him, why wouldn't you see each other and enjoy each other. I made it clear that I zero interest in losing her and I have a great deal of confidence in our strong relationship and our future. I even suggested regular get togethers or short vacations.

I am confused on why this is such a turn on and that I jack off to these thoughts.