Saint Paul says in his letter to the Romans “if we live, we live for the Lord” and we are all called to do that. Including you. Choose to literally live for God. Especially if you don’t want to live, by simply choosing to live, you give glory to God because he knows your heart and sees what you endure for him. Whether you see it or not, God wants to use you in ways you can’t even imagine. Just please keep giving him the opportunity to do so. I don’t want to lose any parts of our body and I need the part that is you. You strengthen our mystical body in a way only God understands and will reveal at the end of time. God loves you more than we can dream of and I love you too. Have faith. Trust God. May God bless you all