I'm so used to expecting to be yelled at or argued with every time I open my mouth. I know it's irrational and I actually WANT to talk to most of the people I know. But right now I'm struggling because even putting myself in a position where someone might talk to me is making my head hurt so much I feel sick.

I miss people and I miss having meaningful conversations. But the minute I consider reaching out to someone, it feels like my skull is shrinking and I need to close my eyes or lie down. I know it makes me difficult. It makes me angrier when I'm angry and sadder when I'm sad. It occasionally makes me aggressive just to get things over with more quickly so I can excuse myself and be alone.

I'm hoping that a supplement called phospatidylserine I read about on /r/nootropics will help since it's supposed to regulate stress? I absolutely hate this.