I hate asking for help but suddenly I'm further in the hole than I've ever been and don't see myself climbing out any time soon. I can't afford a damn thing and hardly have enough as it is. Work hours are cutting back more and more and despite applying for new positions for three weeks now I haven't found a lead beyond almost worthless part time work.

The worst part is that I'm trying not to drink so much and the anxiety during the day is killer. On top of the real stress are these spontaneous, irrational (or maybe not so irrational) feelings of dread that I get all day long until I start drinking again.

I'm gonna leave it at that. If you want more details PM me. I'd appreciate a cheap bottle of vodka more than I can say.