It’s been five days since she left me and it’s literally living hell. It’s all I think about, I’m obsessed over it. The pain comes in waves, but as soon as the night hits and I’m alone, that’s all there is. All I can think about, it’s horrible. It’s confusing and our two year anniversary is on the 4th of July. How am I supposed to be OK whenever that comes up? I’ve struggled so hard with thoughts of suicide. This is easily the worst I’ve ever felt in my entire life. I’m having anxiety attacks all day, I have no appetite and haven’t eaten or drank water in days, I have heart issues and my chest physically hurts all the time, I have no motivation to move a muscle. If you have any tips whatsoever, please let me know. We still have to stay in contact because we coparent our animals and we still share bills and streaming services. I kindly asked her today when I went to get my dog for the week to remove me on Life360 because it was making it so much harder for me. I’m willing to try almost anything at this point so please give me tips. I promise I’m not a crazy person, and I really don’t want to die, but that thought is constantly in my head. I have a whole note written out. My browser is filled with painless ways to do it. How does one come back from this? Like I said, I swear I’m not crazy. Sometimes the pain is just too much.