My girl of 3.5 years left me. I haven't really had any communication with her. She left while I was at work and just left a note. We both did things. She was being sneaky and withholding affection. I broke the trash can in the kitchen while she was in the bathroom. She said that I broke her trust of being safe with me.

I wrote this letter to her but I'm not sure if I should send it. Please give me feedback on it. TIA

Dear Heidi, I understand that I broke your trust, and I am deeply sorry. I now understand how things that I did affected our relationship. If there is anything I can do to restore some level of security and stability to our relationship after I broke your trust, please let me know. I am willing to do what is needed to start the journey of restoration. I realize that I haven't been a good partner to you, but I want to change.

   I have had a lot of time for self reflection and have come to the realization that I wasn't unhappy with anyone but myself, and that you were right when you would tell me that I listening but I wasn't hearing what you were saying.I was busy worrying about my feelings and what my demons were telling me, and for that I'm very sorry. I needed to show you more respect and love.

    I know that things have to change, so I have taken some steps to fix myself. I am now in therapy once a week. I have joined a 90-day mentorship program that I participate in daily. It will help me become a better communicator, listener, and leader. It will also teach me the tools to deal with my emotions and better understand how I affect other people's emotions. 

   I have also started going to church. It's a little awkward going by myself. I wish I would have went all the times you asked. If I had, maybe things wouldn't be like this. I really am trying to make the effort, and I wish you could see. I miss you terribly. More than you will ever know. 

    I have realized that you are right about all the materialistic stuff. And even though I can handle it all by myself, it doesn't mean much without you. I want you in my life and would do anything for the chance to show you that I can be the man that you deserve.