Basically to keep this sweet and simple I was with my boyfriend for about two months and things were going pretty well. I’d spent the whole weekend with him and the night before he was even making plans with me ahead of time or when we were watching a show he pointed at a cute couple during the scene and said “that’s us” then the very next morning out of nowhere he broke up with me. Said he wasn’t feeling it anymore. While his feelings are valid, it completely ripped the floor from right underneath of me. To say I was blindsided was an understatement. My immediate reaction was to keep asking why over and over again and then at one point I asked how long he’d been feeling this way and he said a week even though I thought we were doing so well so I’m confused how feelings can change so drastically so quickly. Regardless, my main issue is that outside of asking him why I was crying really hard. He then rolled out of bed and started to get dressed so I said “I guess I’ll just go” while still crying and my hands over my face I was shoving my clothes in my bag and he gestured to something I’d gotten for him and asked me if I wanted to take it in which I replied “no I don’t want anything” (in reference to all things we’ve gotten together) and I just hurried out of his room and out the front door and got in my car and left. We haven’t spoken since. I’m deeply hurt and confused. But I also know his feelings are valid even if I don’t understand them. I just feel like I fucked up by my reaction I wish I would’ve been more composed and gotten a better and proper goodbye. But as I’ve said, it blindsided me and I never saw it coming. I haven’t spoken to him since and I don’t plan to. He wants to leave so I’m going to let him. But I’ll admit I’ve been fighting reaching out just to say that I wish it didn’t end that way and that I was able to have better communication. I just was in complete shock I couldn’t think straight. The other half is telling me to let bygones be bygones and just move on considering he could’ve also made more of an effort to reach out or give a better goodbye. I guess what I’m trying to figure out is, am I a bad person for how I reacted? I wish I would’ve let him talk and told him I didn’t understand but I respect his wishes. I’m embarrassed but also really hurt. Is it worth breaking no contact? Or should I just move on? I can say it’s a learned mistake but tbh I couldn’t even think straight at the time because of how abrupt and out of no where it was I wish I would’ve reacted better. Sorry this is so long.