I have been in a relationship for 11 months and my partner wants to open up now that we will be long distance for 3.5 months. Our relationship has had betrayals and distrust from both sides, so I am already destabilized from that. Now the push to be open because it is something they need and cannot wait for has left me completely unstable. I randomly sob uncontrollably or if I have an intrusive thought about him with others, and have very abusive visceral reactions. We didn’t prep for opening, full dive. Now I’m trying to catch up with reading books on ENM to find compassion to accept this new dynamic. It helps…and then one little thought throws me off for the rest of the day. Has anyone worked through managing their feelings and reactions in an open relationship? Any tips/resources (books, articles) I can look into? I cannot afford therapy atm (I applied to a sliding scale queer therapy group, waiting foe response). This is destroying me, but I want to make things work and I also don’t think I should be this affected. Thank you. 💜