I didn’t realize how important it is to have someone willingly touch you. I had my first girlfriend at 25 she of course touched me, we dated for a year and a half. Then she left without any reason, other than it’s not you it’s me.. which we all know is code for it’s definitely you. That really wrecked me as the week before we filled out applications for apartments, once we had lived together a while I was going to propose.

I then refused anything that looked romantic or sexual for just over two years. I began trying to get back into dating which is when I realized I’m Bi. Last month I hooked up with a married couple, and it shook something in me. Since then I’ve been obsessed with trying to get a fwb or a partner. If I’m being honest libido has somewhat blended with being touched and now it’s all I can think about. I want to hold someone, someone to hold me and touch me. I know this is a lot does anyone have any advice? (Masturbation is like pouring gas on a fire)