Hi everyone. Genuine here so please no hate. As I’ve covered in a few posts I’ve struggled a lot with having bi sex and how it sits with me. I never had thoughts about it when I was younger, only when older men took advantage of me online. No attraction but they made me feel wanted. Possibly chasing that feeling or it’s affecting everything somehow but that’s not the whole story.

I had sex last night with someone I’ve got with before. Regretted it the moment I walked through their door, which is a feeling i get every time I hookup with a guy/ trans woman. I came and left as soon as I could. This is not healthy. It makes me feel like shit. I think I may be addicted to sex somehow as I’m constantly looking for it and it takes up a lot of my spare time. It’s just so much easier to hookup with guys compared to women. I never feel bad after hooking up with a woman and always chat afterwards.

Now I can see how this could come across as me having some sort of denial or internalised homophobia but if I thought I was 100% bi I would have accepted myself by now. I have no attraction , I close my eyes and just want to get off. And hate myself after. This could be more suited to a hypersexual page but thought I could post here too. I think I might source a sexual therapist because it’s affecting me a lot now.

Any advice or if people have been through similar it would be great if you could leave a comment. Thank you :)