Last night I found out I was pregnant and I feel so conflicted about it. I’m 23 years old and this was completely unexpected. I should have been taking birth control however it interferes a lot with my BPD and I honestly can’t stand being on it. Plus, with having PCOS, it’s hard for me to even get pregnant so I’m shocked that it even happened. My boyfriend is supportive of me but I am still going through school and neither of us make much money. I feel like it would be irresponsible to bring a child into the world but I’m so conflicted because I know it’s harder for me to get pregnant, and with my boyfriend being supportive and willing to work even harder to make this happen, I am honestly considering it. I can’t help but to feel that either choice I make will be the wrong one. I feel guilty for even allowing this to happen but somehow excited at the same time. It’s such a weird feeling. I don’t want to be selfish and have a child for some sort of self fulfillment, but I know I would do what it takes to make it work.
I’ve been super emotional about this so I guess this is more so a rant or asking for advice. Anyone in a similar situation? 🥹