i’m FRESHLY 18, and i know the age might be a little scary for some of you but i’ll send u some ID if we connect and you care.

so like.. basically this is a cry for help. i’m bored, and i’m a mess, and i want SOMETHING. it’s hard to describe, and definitely unusual to search for that “it factor” on a bdsm reddit thread, especially because i only use this app for advice very scarcely, but i need help. i’ve always been interested in older men, and roughness, and the side of the things that make people look at you a little funny, but i’m a little scared of pursuing it all. i want physical contact, and connection that keeps my interest. i think, or i hope, someone here can help me with that! i’m a virgin with little intimate experience, and i crave something more that i feel like a can’t have. there may be a little curiosity as to why i think i might find it here, but i don’t like to be in control. i have a lottt of issues with vulnerability, and insecurity, but i know i LIKE being told what to do. i want someone who’s gonna take away the thinking for me kinda. i just need anything. i don’t know if i’m ready for anything long term, and i don’t know if i’m too sensitive for nsa or hookups. i don’t wanna feel completely devalued. all in all i want a big, guiding, molding hand.

about me (some surface level, potentially interest mongering facts): physically i don’t think i’m the scum of the earth or anything! first off i’m black. idk if that’ll bother any of you. i’m not gonna sit here and describe myself like a sensual, chocolate-caramel doe-eyed nubian princess or something because that’s a little weird, but i’m not UGLY. i think i’m conventionally okay. mostly curvy, 5’7” and at a wavering 175ish pounds or something. i realllly wanna be skinnier so if someone wants to help me with that too, cool! my hair’s pretty long, it’s dyed a brownish gingerish color, and i keep it natural 90% of the time. idrk how chatting on here works or whatever but mutual attraction is a must so it’s like a.. i’ll show you mine if you show me yours type deal. that being said i’m not a nude photo girl or a flashing type 😭 i have some body image issues etc etc and while that entire thing might be essential to an online dynamic, i NEED to feel comfortable before ur seeing me naked or something. i’m really big on media consumption and my favs overall are music and film/tv. with music i tend to lean towards the more alternative side of things with favoritism and i try sooo very hard not to be an elitist about it but i like basically every genre, even the bad ones. film’s a little more complicated but i like creepier, subversive stuff. seeps into every aspect of what i gravitate towards. sometimes i read, but not enough, and i’m trying to learn guitar over the summer. lastly i’m going to a cc near me in the fall and i’m majoring in digital media production, and i live with my mom lmao. i also can’t drive. like i’m working on it, but if you want to meet me (sooner than later) a lot of it’s gonna be on you. very sorry.

about.. you? (more explicit details on what i’m looking for. kinda.): first off physical attraction is very important to me. a HUUUGE turn on is when a man is taller than me. i like feeling smaller, and sometimes weaker, and size difference helps. i’d prefer someone local and maybe not so old that it’s insanely suspicious or concerning. online COULD be fine. not as fulfilling, i don’t think, or i don’t know, but definitely better than nothing. i don’t want to be treated like dirt under your shoe 90% of the time but i’m okay with harder treatment. just, y’know, don’t expect me to be 100% down for everything immediately. i’d like to experience vaginal penetration once or twice, or foreplay, or something in the realm of normalcy before i’m being pinned down and having things shoved up my ass. that being said, i’m curious, and i’m trying to be willing. boundaries can be discussed or whatever. if you are interested in dealing with me, some tolerance for any sort of stronger personality is encouraged. i’m obviously very inexperienced, and new, and green and i want to be able to speak normally without being worried about offending you or something. i can listen! and i will to the best of my ability, but like, i’m also human. i have other aspects to my being that succeed being a future sex toy or something. be firm and mean, but nice sometimes. idk! work with me! teach me.

kink wise: i think i’d like a lot. i want to try a lot. i want to feel okay enough to do so, so much. you should help me figure it out.

LIMITS: omg this should be a given but i will absolutely, under no circumstances for any reason do race-play or anything akin to it. don’t piss me off. i’m a little skittish about feet, probably not the bathroom fluids type of girl. scat will make me throw up and i hate throwing up. beyond that things can be relatively negotiable.. i think. except for anal omg i don’t want it yet. so sorry lmao.

if you got this far that’s really cool. sorry this is so long. hit me up if you think you’d be a good fit! tell me about yourself, what you want, etc. despite how this might come off, i’m not really looking for “just sex”. don’t perv off in my dms or be creepy. i really want this to work guys. please.

p.s i’m sorry about the structure of this because i know it’s word vomit, but if i need to make another ad i’ll fix it, pinky swear. i mostly read other ads and tried to incorporate interesting enough or essential information that fits the common structure and likely failed.