I (43,F) am a masochistic owned submissive. I have been so for 2.5 years. Over that time, I experienced episodes of depression that I chalked up to perimenopause. 2 weeks ago, I had a depressive urge immediately after a scene, and with guidance from my Dom, we deduced it was subdrop. It has me on FULL STOP mode regarding BDSM and even intense vanilla sex. Granted, we have both come to realize we were not practicing aftercare to the necessary level. As of right now, the risks/benefits analysis of my bdsm participation indicate I should not participate in bdsm. Anyone else experience the same or similar??

EDIT for clarity and additional info: I am mentally ill, in addition to physically disabled. I have been in therapy since 2017. I am on multiple mental health medications. The big hitch, though, is that I'm not seeing a kink friendly therapist, so I do not divulge ANY of my kink to my therapist. I have read, although I can not remember where that subdrop could last weeks. Continued thanks for reading and responding.