I really want to be a good girl for my Master. I want to do everything he says. I’m also a very emotionally unstable person who’s prone to panic, cry, and/or become horribly depressed at the drop of a hat. My Master has said that violations of protocol during emotional episodes are still violations of protocol that I do need to be punished for or else I’ll start using my emotional state as an excuse to be disobedient. I don’t necessarily disagree with his assessment, but at the same being punished for violating protocol during these episodes tends to make me feel an extra layer of shame and guilt on top of the usual amount of guilt and shame I feel for having an emotional outburst. Currently the default punishment for protocol violations is to take away points on Habitica, which is normally fine, but I wonder if there’s a more soothing option for punishment that won’t add to my pre-existing guilt.

Edit: I should clarify that the protocol being violated during emotional episodes are mostly speech protocols, like not using his proper titles.

UPDATE: My Master has paused his training of me and we will be renegotiating our contract to smooth out our issues.