I've been in different, but back to back relationships for 8 years with men who have taken care of me and I don't need to work. But I don't feel like I have any goals? I don't really care about accomplishments to impress others, but I don't even know what I want to do for myself.

I've had personal troubles, health issues, and severe anxiety/agoraphobia. I feel like I'm kinda getting better (some days). How do I figure out what I want to do? I have hobbies and stuff, but I guess like, knitting a scarf isn't really the big goals that I want to figure out for myself. Is there like, a book I could read? Or like, meditating? Ugh, I don't know. Thanks in advance if you have any advice.