I came out to my parents and siblings in 2014 and they took it well. I felt very supported and like I could start being myself from that point forward.

Cut to now, and it feels like the only one who genuinely supports me is my dad. I just got off the phone with my oldest sister after hanging up on her for making me upset. The conversation went a little like this:

her: “hey, my mom was telling me that she was talking to our aunt and she told her about you… and my mom started crying and said that people think her life is so easy when it’s not.”

me: “Why do yall insist on talking about my sexuality? do you realize how that makes me feel?”

her: “well I just hate how people are all up our business, her son might be gay too”

that’s where I stopped her and said “it’s not a competition to see whose son or daughter will come out gay so we can belittle them for it, stop calling me”

and hung up. Then she proceeds to send me a wall of text saying I’m getting mad at the wrong person and blah blah.

The truth is, I feel like my sister and my mom will never 100% accept the way that I am. I am so tired of this and about to cut them off completely bc it’s weighing heavily on me. My bf says that I seek their approval or validation, but I dont think that’s what it is… I feel like family is (or was) very important and that if I were to ever be single again, at least I could count on them.

The topic of my sexuality has been a huge elephant in the room with my extended family. Some know, some pretend not to, and some spew their hate towards me for it. I’m 30 now, and was 21 then… and it seems like coming out got WAY harder. It’s so difficult dealing with this. I’m so tired of it.

There’s always some comment about it from my oldest sister… despite her acting like she’s supportive.

Help bc im about to block them all and cut them out of my life