Basically the title. I've had this problem for a long time, and I haven't had the money (or courage) to get help. I've been lying to everyone, buying food and throwing it away, saying I've been eating. I've always had a small frame, so its been easy to get away with. The lying makes me hate myself, then I end up feeling like I don't deserve to eat. I've never met anyone that's understood. Even if I've hinted at it being a problem, people just tell me to "just eat more", or some other bs "simple solution". I think that the real cause of it all is depression, but I don't know for sure. How do you find out what is causing you to self-harm by means of starvation?