TW

for the past few months, especially since the beginning of this year, i've started to feel too overwhelmed by the thought of food, and started to count more and restrict more, and now I get terrified by the thought of eating; I used to be on the slightly overweight side in late 2021, my family and friends bullied me into skinniness, and I thought once I reached my "goal" I would be satisfied, but I kept digging for flaws in my body, and it all came down to this, now i'm trying to eat anything with my family but I just can't, I have to record and track every single thing that goes down my esophagus, and I started getting intrusive urges to purge or binge, and thanks to compliments I get I can't stop restricting, now this may be a dumb question but is this what anorexia is? Because I genuinely can't tell if I'm making this up in my head or i'm just ill.