Hi honey! I’m so sorry you’re going through this!!! I’m also a nanny, and I’ve been there. Before I went to treatment, I was nannying for a very busy family. The dad had cancer and the mom was an anesthesiologist and I felt so guilty leaving their family to go to treatment but it’s the best decision I ever made. How close are you with the mom? When I went to treatment, I had a hard conversation with her explaining my situation and she was extremely empathetic, while also being stressed. I felt like I was letting her and the family down. However, she said something that’s stuck with me to this day. I told her I was worried about being a bad role model for the kids by leaving on such short notice, and she told me I was being an incredible role model by showing the kids that sometimes we need to take care of ourselves first. I returned to work after four months of treatment and it was such a joy. I learned that they had struggled to replace me at first, but two weeks into my leave found a replacement who ended up working for them after I left the position permanently for school.

Sorry for the wall of text lmao. You need to put yourself first, even though it’s hard, there’s never a convenient time to go to treatment. Unfortunately life does not work out how we plan, but you deserve to take care of yourself. Sending you lots of love and support 💕